November 16, 2020
For the first time in a while I felt like this past weekend I could actually relax. With no major commitments and nothing pressing which needed to be done I was given an opportunity to breathe.
Yet, I didn’t take advantage of it.
I filled my weekend—or at least half of it—with chores and small things to keep me busy and to get ahead.
Why is it that I am not longer satisfied with being bored—always seeking out tasks to keep my idle hands busy and feeling the need to go-go-go? Once, prior to owning a home I imagine, boredom was something I craved. Being bored, or rather having a lack of dictated things to do, allowed me to: think, be creative, read, and read some more. Being bored provided a near-perfect way to find the energy to reflect and recharge.
Now, I feel that I am always working away at something.
With my fresh start I had hoped to take the month of November to rest and reflect. While I have begun to accomplish this in many ways, primarily in terms of social media and online compulsions, I am not certain I am where I need to be. When it comes to my non-digital life I may need to double-down on my focus to review what I’m doing, what needs to be done, and what path I should take forward.
- Finished, How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi. This was a struggle. My mini review is here.
- Started my annual re-read of Essentialism: The Disciplined Pursuit of Less by Greg McKeown
- Framing the basis for a talk on, Yes/No: How To Gift Our Time To What Matters Most for a presentation series on careers and mentoring
- Contemplating a more structured and focused reading plan for 2021 which would have me reading more intentionally, building deeper connections to the topics I am most interested in, getting back to the act of writing, and perhaps even publishing content online to engage with others. I am beginning to amass some thoughts on this reading plan. I am calling this “project,” On Reading.
- Looking forward to painting our den so that I can move my office out of our living room and return some of the work/life balance which once existed.